Woman...Scien(TES)t...Poet

Glimpses Into Me

(TES)

I’m human. Lots of days I struggle to keep myself on the path intended and find myself off in the weeds somewhere in a cycle of thought. I’ve found ways to reign myself in and poetry is one of those ways. Writing has always been a natural extension of my personality, psyche, and creative voice. I don’t know where I would be without the ability to lengthen my experiences to the page. I don’t always know why I write what I do, sometimes it’s very intentional and other times it may be something that I was given in a dream, or a half-awakened line comes to me. I don’t always understand the words that rush out through my hands, they wash over me sometimes, and make me relieved and renewed. I’ve been going through a metamorphosis, one had by many in humanity that reach a certain age. I don’t feel I’m the same person that wrote the biography I just deleted to put these words down. This is a new creature.

My website, in part, will document this journey and serve as a repository for deep thoughts, struggles, adventures, celebrations, and allow a safe space to be authentic. I’m proud of myself for giving this website a chance originally and to have had the ability to document my experience through the Covid-19 pandemic and what it meant to emerge and exist in a post-Covid world. I started this website with the help of my friend Ida to house my thoughts and poetry and in the following next few weeks, we were in the midst of a worldwide pandemic which changed everything. For a time, I was diligent in crafting my monthly blogs and trying to have a social media presence, then I just sort of stopped it all. I’m not quite sure why, I just didn’t want to do it anymore. I guess I lost interest and began introverting. I feel like I’ve been introverting for quite a while, not to imply that I don’t go out or am a recluse, but I decided to step back from online interaction and social media. I stopped checking all my social media accounts, removed the apps from my phone, and began living more authentically and less digitally. I’ve been guarded and placed boundaries around my mind and how I allow it to be stimulated. I’ve come to the conclusion that I miss writing about life and experience in this space and want to try it again, this time without giving a fiddle if anyone reads it or not. This is for my sanity, therapy, and documentation. If you’d like to share that with me, welcome.

To date my work has been published in The Ravens Perch, Pangyrus, Arts of Thought, Constellate Literary Journal, Drunk Monkeys, Knights Library Magazine, The Wax Paper, and The Atlanta Review. Also, I was a 2021 Pushcart Prize nominee for the poem “Violet Expert”.

Tara E Sturgill

March 27, 2023

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